Nothing is real

Nothing is perfect 

Nothing is certain

You can lie

You can try 

You can run, you can hide

But they can still, see it in your eyes

The fear and the failure

Heartache and disaster

This life you cannot master 

Mistakes are meant to be made

Rules are meant to be broken

There's winners and there's losers

Failures and the forgotten 

This too shall pass

And life will go on 

Someday you'll forget

This feeling will soon be gone 

 

..So, it's been awhile since I've posted anything, much less even been on here. I forgot my password and silly me, I put in the wrong e-mail until I thought today that maybe I used the wrong one. So here I am, I read through a lot of my old postings and my oh my how things have changed. It also made me realize I need to start writing more again, but I had a lot of good stuff on here when I was writing a lot, but since I've just had a bad case of writer's block and I'm not totally sure how to work through it. 

Anyway, on with the point. I dearly missed the comfort of Xanga and being able to pour my heart and soul into my page without having a care, and maybe just maybe someone could relate to me and not feel so alone. But hopefully I'll get a little less rusty here soon. I'd like to say that it's funny to read back and think about the things I wanted to happen that did (and some that didn't) and to just remember how I felt back then. It's comforting to know that at least some of the things I hoped for did happen, and that through all that pain and "heartbreak" I came out on the other side, stronger and smarter. 

 

Sometimes I wonder
If other people wonder
Like I do
And if I'll ever get out of this
Dream world
I like to live in
Because this will never be enough
Or so it seems to be
We're always waiting for something

Well today nothing feels right
and
I don't know quite what
to do
I just want to get out of here
and see a view
I know we all have to do things
We don't wanna do
But we just have to deal
Doesn't matter how I feel
But nothing feels real
And my head is spinning
With this emptiness
I don't want to be this girl
and
I am anyway
I can't help it
But they all see
What kind of person I'm turning out to be
I just can't
Do it
I just want to do
What I want to do
But all I want to do
Is escape from this-
Reality
and anything that feels too real
I just don't want to deal